Last night when I was reading the Bible, I was struck with what I read not because it’s a new text, infact it’s a very familiar story in the Bible that I have grown listening to or reading since I was in my teen years. Most of us know the story of how the 5 loaves of bread and two fish were able to feed more than 5,000 people as Jesus was ministering with his disciples. It was one of the famous miracles He performed while He was on earth.  While reading them, I heard God spoke in my heart about His provision. Being a believer, I know by heart and by mind that God is my Jehovah-Jireh, He will provide everything according to his riches in glory ( as what His word says ) BUT, believing and living it are two different things. God dealt with the latter to me.

Previously on my blog entries, I wrote about the timing that God wants me to build up something. That something is actually a RIGHT START CENTER ^_^ a place where we can hold our programs. Building a center for the community or non-profit organization is far different from building a new business or corporation.( Anyway, I won’t go into details about it at this blog) Every single day has been a faith stretching exercise for me as I try to apply what I believe — and even to forsee the future. I can do all the calculating and accounting and still end up thinking if I will have enough resources to build this center offering quality after-school programs for the underprivileged children. Then came the 5 loaves and 2 fish.

The disciples told Jesus in Matthew 14:17 “WE HAVE NOTHING HERE  but 5 loaves and 2 Fish”


Then Jesus went on and gave thanks, blessed, broke the loaves, handed the pieces to the disciples and then the disciples gave them to the people.

At this point… I was like having a dialogue with God…

Arlene: “Lord, I only have a few bucks… ( few bucks as compared to what we want to accomplish and do ) I only actually have the “seed money”… “

Lord: Bring them to Me…

Arlene : I just did. I offer everything up to you… What will You do with it Lord?

Lord: I will give thanks to My Father, will bless your seed, will broke (loaves) and handed them to RIGHT START… ( yes, I will entrust your NGO ) and your NGO will be the one to distribute it to people just like what I did to the 5 loaves and 2 fish. I did not directly gave them to the people, I entrusted them to my disciples because I want you to witness what I’m about to do. I want you to trust me in behalf of the needs of these people. 

Arlene: I continued reading…

Matthew 14: 20 they all ate and were satisfied. They picked up twelve baskets full of broken pieces of left over.

v21: There were about 5,000 men not including the women and children who received it.

Oh! WOW!!! Everyone were able to received and were satisfied. There were even left-overs and it was overflowing. Lord, you are amazing!!!

Lord: I will do the same for you… for Right Start. I love these people more than you love them. I care for their needs and I will satisfy them. In the first place, this is my mission — to give life and that people may live their life to the fullest. I will just use you — so don’t waste time worrying when I am the one incharge.

Arlene: continued reading

Matthew 14:23 After dismissing the multitudes, He went up to the hills by himself to pray.

Lord, thank you for your sweet revelation that above all things — You are sovereign and You have once again shown me that there’s no greater love than the way you love people. You even laid down your life for all of us that we might live. Thank you for giving me a new perspective to see the 5 loaves and 2 fish. I choose to believe and live my faith for Your glory, for Your kingdom and for You. 

Have you felt that God planted a burden or a desire in your heart way beyond yourself or even your resources? Maybe He gave you a dream and a vision to fulfill and you often think if it will come to pass. Take heart my friend, Bring it to Him whatever you have. He will not just multiply them, but He will let you witness how He will provide and fulfill His plans and purposes for your life.


About inthebusinessofchanginglives

God has called me to be in the business of changing lives through advocating for children and youth-at-risk, leading faith-based organizations, equipping ministry workers, and empowering the next generation as change agents in their communities. The author serves as the Executive Director of Visions of Hope Foundation and CCT-Visions of Hope Christian School, the children and youth ministry arm of Center for Community Transformation (CCT). She also co-founded Right Start Community Development Inc. an NGO reaching underprivileged children by providing afterschool programs.

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